Aimless Soul..

Feeling terribly lost now since exams ended. There was no sign of relief, no happiness, no celebration or whatever so. Just a sense of emptiness in me. Not sure if the fever that I developed a couple of days ago burnt my brain cells. I know I've reached a different stage in life now and this transition doesn't seem to be smooth. It's as if I lost the only focus in life. All along, for the past 2 decades, it has always been studying and doing well for exams. Suddenly, these activities have come to an abrupt end. Welcome to the working world. I'm alright with that but I'm not 100 percent sure what I want to do for the rest of my life. It doesn't help that people around me are one by one getting employed. I've also lost my 'once-a-week' eating/shopping/photo-hunt partner as she has officially joined the labour force.

It absolutely irks me when those neighbours of mine and people that I hardly communicate with start asking me what I want to work as. I'm not even sure myself. How am I going to answer them? I won't mine if close friends ask me that but I hate it when kaypohs do so. MYOB lah. I'll tell you when I get employed so stop asking.

Made a few discoveries while I was sick the past few days.

1. Panadols actually existed in my house.
2. The importance of TV can never be underestimated.
3. HBO actually has thought-provoking movies instead of brainless ones.
4. Those Hong Kong TVB actors who cross over to the China based stations are those that are, sad to say, over-the-hill.
5. Reinforcement of "Health is Wealth".

Most importantly, I realise who are the people that are really concerned for my well- being. It's only when one feels down or ill that one notices such things.

Anyway, today, I got asked this question twice. "Are you a foreigner?" Lost count of the number of times strangers and acquaintances ask me that. When I probe them on what nationality do I look like, their standard reply would be "Not too sure. But just not local." Thank you very much. That was so informative and useful.